As some here probably already know through certain OT threads in the past I experience difficulties in some areas of life. Pronounced difficulties with mood reactivity ( I have Borderline Personality Disrorder). Basically, it's' like I'm always PMS'ing. I know how that sounds. That's why I wrote it - it's the truth! Sometimes I just explode for no damn good reason. And I hurt people...never physically. But I say (or write as the case may be) stupid stuff that I regret like crazy later on. I tend not to get to close to people due to Social Anxiety issues on top of the Borderline mood stuff. I actually push people away to keep my own sense of self intact. And at age 52 I'm finally accepting it (I was diagnosed two separate times with BPD - two different Doctors).
I'm sharing this stuff because I think I may have over-reacted to Panama - among others - when he was here. I think I might have driven him away. And that affects everyone here as folks just want to talk football. And boy, did he ever like to talk football.
Anyhow, I know I've been strange on this board - and that's NOT counting the UFO and paranormal stuff. :dunno: I just want folks to know that I know I've been a pain in the ass here. I'm aware of that now.
Sorry!
I'm sharing this stuff because I think I may have over-reacted to Panama - among others - when he was here. I think I might have driven him away. And that affects everyone here as folks just want to talk football. And boy, did he ever like to talk football.
Anyhow, I know I've been strange on this board - and that's NOT counting the UFO and paranormal stuff. :dunno: I just want folks to know that I know I've been a pain in the ass here. I'm aware of that now.
Sorry!
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