OT: Roo's Miracle...A TPB's Thread Of Courage, Strength, Hope, Unity and Support

[chargeroo]

I check in on you to see how you're doing. Hoping you're resting and comfortable chargeroo

a few years ago my wife had cancer and survived, my youngest son not so lucky. It's tough this time of the year. Stay the course man.

Thanks for your well wishes. I can still walk (with a walker) and as long as I can still walk I'm not too bad off. My son gave me a little machine that exercises your legs while you are sitting around, maybe it will give a little more time. There are a lot of people with this same nasty disease who are way worse off than me. I can't complain. I'm leaning on Jesus.

[FoutsFan]

FoutsFan, how are you doing now?

Well this Christmas season has been tough so far, it wont get easier over the next couple of days. Just do a lot of praying and things to keep myself occupied. I do a lot of painting, I have taken up golf again after about a 20 year break and I am learning to play the Banjo. I try to keep busy and occupied but I keep getting blindsided with memories no matter what I do. Next February and March marks 1 year so that is looming around the corner, I feel like I am walking down a dark tunnel and the light at the end is an oncoming train that I can see but not do anything about. Some days I just focus on tasks, get up, get dressed, drive to work, run reports and so on. Just 1 task, focus on completing it then start another, not all days are that bad but many are.

I have family that ask all the time How are you doing, they don't want to know, they just want to hear great I am doing great, so they can feel relieved. I ask them do you really want to know? It becomes an uncomfortable silence. My wife and I lean on each other when the other is not doing well. God has been doing a lot of heavy lifting in our lives as well, if not for him I do not know where I would be right now.

I can't say enough for the support here on this board from my Bolt family and for Fleet letting me post here, it helps a lot to type things out and get them off my chest.

Thank you for asking, today was a tough day.

[FoutsFan]

Hello,
With all due respect, I am having a very hard time believing in God. Our daughter was just diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer, in her upper lung, lower back, throat and hip. She is a nonsmoker, 36 years old, married for 3 years and has a two year old son. Why??? she is so kind, considerate, smart, gives back to others that have needs, constantly. I just have a very very hard time believing in God at this point in my life. There is nothing I can do to help but be supportive. I wish i could trade places with her. If there was a god, he/she should take me now, instead of her.

As someone who has lost 2 sons I completely understand your feeling on this. This world sucks, its fallen and very hard to make sense of it. One of my go to psalms during my dark times has been Pslams 44: 23-24

²³ Awake! Why do You sleep, O Lord?
Arise! Do not cast us off forever.
²⁴ Why do You hide Your face,
And forget our affliction and our oppression?

The Psalmist is yelling at God telling him to wake up and pay attention to what is going on here. I have felt the same way. Many nights I have cried this same Psalm. Just know he is real and he still loves us and is there for us even if we do not understand what is going on.

I m sorry to hear about your situation and will keep you in my prayers.

[Ghost of Quacksaw]

Well this Christmas season has been tough so far, it wont get easier over the next couple of days. Just do a lot of praying and things to keep myself occupied. I do a lot of painting, I have taken up golf again after about a 20 year break and I am learning to play the Banjo. I try to keep busy and occupied but I keep getting blindsided with memories no matter what I do. Next February and March marks 1 year so that is looming around the corner, I feel like I am walking down a dark tunnel and the light at the end is an oncoming train that I can see but not do anything about. Some days I just focus on tasks, get up, get dressed, drive to work, run reports and so on. Just 1 task, focus on completing it then start another, not all days are that bad but many are.

I have family that ask all the time How are you doing, they don't want to know, they just want to hear great I am doing great, so they can feel relieved. I ask them do you really want to know? It becomes an uncomfortable silence. My wife and I lean o each other when the other is not doing well. God has been doing a lot of heavy lifting in our lives as well, if not for him I do not know where I would be right now.

I can't say enough for the support here on this board from my Bolt family and for Fleet letting me post here, it helps a lot to type things out and get them off m chest.

Thank you for asking, today was a tough day.

Sending good vibes your way, man. May peace be with you.

[Fleet 1]

I check in on you to see how you're doing. Hoping you're resting and comfortable chargeroo

a few years ago my wife had cancer and survived, my youngest son not so lucky. It's tough this time of the year. Stay the course man.

Sorry to hear about your son my man. MOJO to you and your Ohana this Christmas.

[Whydachargers?]

Well this Christmas season has been tough so far, it wont get easier over the next couple of days. Just do a lot of praying and things to keep myself occupied. I do a lot of painting, I have taken up golf again after about a 20 year break and I am learning to play the Banjo. I try to keep busy and occupied but I keep getting blindsided with memories no matter what I do. Next February and March marks 1 year so that is looming around the corner, I feel like I am walking down a dark tunnel and the light at the end is an oncoming train that I can see but not do anything about. Some days I just focus on tasks, get up, get dressed, drive to work, run reports and so on. Just 1 task, focus on completing it then start another, not all days are that bad but many are.

I have family that ask all the time How are you doing, they don't want to know, they just want to hear great I am doing great, so they can feel relieved. I ask them do you really want to know? It becomes an uncomfortable silence. My wife and I lean on each other when the other is not doing well. God has been doing a lot of heavy lifting in our lives as well, if not for him I do not know where I would be right now.

I can't say enough for the support here on this board from my Bolt family and for Fleet letting me post here, it helps a lot to type things out and get them off my chest.

Thank you for asking, today was a tough day.

I'm so glad I asked! And thank you for being completely forthright. That's a BIG Christmas gift for me and I'm sure many others who are in need of connecting in a meaningful way. I can relate a lot with you. More on this later. Basically I'm struggling as well with a lot of loneliness - and fear that it will never end.

My father played all kinds of golf - even died on Edgewood Tahoe Golf Course of a heart attack. My uncle played the banjo when he was younger so I love hearing it played "well". lol

Much love and warmth from God and people in your life...that's my wish and prayer for you.

EDIT: One last thing...Please use this thread ANY TIME you need to reach out and bare your soul. I believe Fleet would want that.You're not only helping you when you do. You're also helping others like myself.

[FoutsFan]

I check in on you to see how you're doing. Hoping you're resting and comfortable chargeroo

a few years ago my wife had cancer and survived, my youngest son not so lucky. It's tough this time of the year. Stay the course man.

Praying for you

[La Costa Boy]

Merry Christmas to you and yours Roo. From my family to yours.

[Whydachargers?]

I check in on you to see how you're doing. Hoping you're resting and comfortable chargeroo

a few years ago my wife had cancer and survived, my youngest son not so lucky. It's tough this time of the year. Stay the course man.

Wow. Don't know how you do it.

[ChargerBooster]

Greetings Chargeroo !

I’m the fellow-fan, poster from the U T Tribune board, with the very same user name _ ChargerBooster.

Glad you’re still here; but sorry for the news and can only wish you the very best in all of it ! Hope they’re all treating you very well.

Many posts, many topics, many Chargers seasons, drafts and games. . .Covered a lot of ground (or yards).

With all good thoughts and prayers. Jim H. Aka “ChargerBooster”.


Note from ChargetBooster: Confusing upcoming game Vs. the Chiefs; win is always good, but doggone it, a loss would put our entire draft, as it currently stands, in a more advantageous positioning.

[chargeroo]

Greetings Chargeroo !

I’m the fellow-fan, poster from the U T Tribune board, with the very same user name _ ChargerBooster.

Glad you’re still here; but sorry for the news and can only wish you the very best in all of it ! Hope they’re all treating you very well.

Many posts, many topics, many Chargers seasons, drafts and games. . .Covered a lot of ground (or yards).

With all good thoughts and prayers. Jim H. Aka “ChargerBooster”.


Note from ChargetBooster: Confusing upcoming game Vs. the Chiefs; win is always good, but doggone it, a loss would put our entire draft, as it currently stands, in a more advantageous positioning.

Thanks so much. Have you been at the UT all this time?

I feel the same way about this game. I've been a Charger fan for sooo long and I've always hoped they'd win but this time, I think it would be best for them to lose.

Welcome to the forum here.

[ChargerBooster]

Thanks Chargeroo. Good to hear from you and thanks for the welcome.

No, much as I used to love it and it was almost always a daily part of my life, I wasn’t a participant in the UT board since the franchise left.

As to tomorrows game, will have to wait-and-see; it’s nail-biting time. How alien, strange and bizarre that I almost want us to lose ? ! Goes against so much; goes against everything. Well regardless, if the Chargers ‘Win one for the Gipper’, no wait, make that one for the ‘Giff-er’, we’ll still have a good slotting in the upcoming draft, but, oh my, how unbelievably loftier our position will be in every round should we lose. It’s game night, so we’ll all soon watch it unfold.

Note from ChargerBooster: It’s almost like this game should have asterisks surrounding it in the records. Without going into the full laundry list, and it’s a lengthy one, a win is a win. Hope I’m not choking on that statement come draft day.

Take great care Chargeroo ! Good to be in touch. Long time.