OT: Roo's Miracle...A TPB's Community Thread Of Unity and Support

[Topcat]

I saw them out of the corner of my eye, I turned to them, I knew in my dream that this was Jesus. I started yelling at him too, in a rage, he never rebuked me, he just looked at me and gave me a hug. I felt all my rage melt away and stopped yelling. The next morning I woke up and my anger was gone, I am still ticked off a bit but the rage is gone.

For me, my former anger management issues finally went away after months of prayer...consistent, sustained, sometimes long times of prayer...God is good...and happy Easter everyone!

[FoutsFan]

Reading this....wow....no words. Just tears. Incomprehensible loss, no easy answers.

Yet...a hug. And from who?:

"This was Jesus."

My thoughts extend to all here suffering...and most everyone is hurting big time these days in one way or another. I wish I could extend "thoughts and *prayers* to all. Something in me is a bit broken regarding that last part, though I long to truly pray in earnest once again.

So weird: For portions of my life I loved God/Christ more than anything or anyone. Kinda still do. The believing part is another matter altogether.

God is always waiting for you to return, just like the Father waited for the prodigal son. He loves you and that will never change.

[Whydachargers?]

Work with a therapist. It doesn't have to be like that. Believe it. Best wishes.

Yep. That's the best way IMO.

[sonorajim]

I tried that too. It doesn't make the trauma go away. Makes it hidden for a while perhaps but that's it. OR your trauma will come out unexpectedly on people that had nothing to do with producing your trauma in the first place. And that sucks for everyone. It will pop back up again until your brain processes it sufficiently.

Work with a therapist. It doesn't have to be like that. Believe it. Best wishes.

[Ghost of Quacksaw]

Praying for you.

My wife and I went to trauma therapy after our boys passed. Finding Isaac gave me PTSD and I still battle it. I have crawled out of a deep dark hole recently, I still fall back in the hole but not nearly as much as before. Getting my focus back on Jesus and rebuking the he enemy has helped a lot. I am still a wretched sinner, just trying to keep my focus on God.

I was very angry after my boys died, that was the main focus of the therapy, and dealing with seeing what no parent should ever see. It helped getting my anger down from a rage to a simmer. The biggest help was a dream I had, I never remember dreams, I remembered this one in vivid detail though. I was standing on a sidewalk in a residential neighborhood, across the street was a park, a huge park like Yosemite. I could see a lot of people playing and laughing far away in the park. I knew my boys were there. I was calling them, I could not cross the street, in my dream I knew that was heaven and I could not cross the street. My boys did not respond to me so I yelled louder to get their attention. Still no response. I started to get mad and was really yelling at them. So I’ll no response and I started yelling really pissed off, someone walked up beside me, I saw them out of the corner of my eye, I turned to them, I knew in my dream that this was Jesus. I started yelling at him too, in a rage, he never rebuked me, he just looked at me and gave me a hug. I felt all my rage melt away and stopped yelling. The next morning I woke up and my anger was gone, I am still ticked off a bit but the rage is gone.

i hope you get good results from your ur therapist. I will pray for you to find peace.

This is beautiful. I appreciate you sharing this.

[dmac_bolt]

Hey guys. Just wanted to share here what I'm going through now. Hoping that will lessen the pain or discomfort somehow. Basically I'm seeing a new psycho-therapist the past month. He's convinced I'm on the spectrum. I've felt that way for a long time but my therapists in the past (I'm 63 now) would tell me they didn't agree when I presented my case. On top of that I'm also working on my trauma. And I have a lot of it. It can get overwhelming at times. I really hope this trauma work actually pays off soon. It's fucking rough on me right now. Whenever I've tried working on trauma through a workbook by myself I'd easily get enraged and have to stop almost immediately. So at least this time I'm with an expert. I might talk about something different this week just to give myself a break. Man, it's a LOT to handle.

Curious if anyone else here has gone through trauma therapy. How did it go?

My best wishes to you as well. Take positive steps every day and embrace the positives of spectrum differentials. There are many positives that can be leveraged. As for trauma - I can’t offer opinions. I’ve had more than a few, most of us have, but varieties and severities can’t be compared. I try to approach things with extreme acceptance of the past without regret or anger - what was already was and is gone, we can only look at today and tomorrow and make new choices and decisions.

[Whydachargers?]

Praying for you.

My wife and I went to trauma therapy after our boys passed. Finding Isaac gave me PTSD and I still battle it. I have crawled out of a deep dark hole recently, I still fall back in the hole but not nearly as much as before. Getting my focus back on Jesus and rebuking the he enemy has helped a lot. I am still a wretched sinner, just trying to keep my focus on God.

I was very angry after my boys died, that was the main focus of the therapy, and dealing with seeing what no parent should ever see. It helped getting my anger down from a rage to a simmer. The biggest help was a dream I had, I never remember dreams, I remembered this one in vivid detail though. I was standing on a sidewalk in a residential neighborhood, across the street was a park, a huge park like Yosemite. I could see a lot of people playing and laughing far away in the park. I knew my boys were there. I was calling them, I could not cross the street, in my dream I knew that was heaven and I could not cross the street. My boys did not respond to me so I yelled louder to get their attention. Still no response. I started to get mad and was really yelling at them. So I’ll no response and I started yelling really pissed off, someone walked up beside me, I saw them out of the corner of my eye, I turned to them, I knew in my dream that this was Jesus. I started yelling at him too, in a rage, he never rebuked me, he just looked at me and gave me a hug. I felt all my rage melt away and stopped yelling. The next morning I woke up and my anger was gone, I am still ticked off a bit but the rage is gone.

i hope you get good results from your ur therapist. I will pray for you to find peace.

Thank you. I'm feeling lighter since I wrote about this. So thank you. Your anger makes a LOT of sense to me. Really great story.

EDIT: More profound than "great".

[YAC]

I was very angry after my boys died, that was the main focus of the therapy, and dealing with seeing what no parent should ever see. It helped getting my anger down from a rage to a simmer. The biggest help was a dream I had, I never remember dreams, I remembered this one in vivid detail though. I was standing on a sidewalk in a residential neighborhood, across the street was a park, a huge park like Yosemite. I could see a lot of people playing and laughing far away in the park. I knew my boys were there. I was calling them, I could not cross the street, in my dream I knew that was heaven and I could not cross the street. My boys did not respond to me so I yelled louder to get their attention. Still no response. I started to get mad and was really yelling at them. So I’ll no response and I started yelling really pissed off, someone walked up beside me, I saw them out of the corner of my eye, I turned to them, I knew in my dream that this was Jesus. I started yelling at him too, in a rage, he never rebuked me, he just looked at me and gave me a hug. I felt all my rage melt away and stopped yelling. The next morning I woke up and my anger was gone, I am still ticked off a bit but the rage is gone.

Reading this....wow....no words. Just tears. Incomprehensible loss, no easy answers.

Yet...a hug. And from who?:

"This was Jesus."

My thoughts extend to all here suffering...and most everyone is hurting big time these days in one way or another. I wish I could extend "thoughts and *prayers* to all. Something in me is a bit broken regarding that last part, though I long to truly pray in earnest once again.

So weird: For portions of my life I loved God/Christ more than anything or anyone. Kinda still do. The believing part is another matter altogether.

[Boltnut]

That's powerful! I would elaborate but I know you already know how difficult it can be for your daughter at her age. I know that pain very well. Yep The fact you care makes a BIG difference for her.

Thank you, that's kind of you to say.
I will keep you in my wishes.
You will make it through this.

[FoutsFan]

Hey guys. Just wanted to share here what I'm going through now. Hoping that will lessen the pain or discomfort somehow. Basically I'm seeing a new psycho-therapist the past month. He's convinced I'm on the spectrum. I've felt that way for a long time but my therapists in the past (I'm 63 now) would tell me they didn't agree when I presented my case. On top of that I'm also working on my trauma. And I have a lot of it. It can get overwhelming at times. I really hope this trauma work actually pays off soon. It's fucking rough on me right now. Whenever I've tried working on trauma through a workbook by myself I'd easily get enraged and have to stop almost immediately. So at least this time I'm with an expert. I might talk about something different this week just to give myself a break. Man, it's a LOT to handle.

Curious if anyone else here has gone through trauma therapy. How did it go?

Praying for you.

My wife and I went to trauma therapy after our boys passed. Finding Isaac gave me PTSD and I still battle it. I have crawled out of a deep dark hole recently, I still fall back in the hole but not nearly as much as before. Getting my focus back on Jesus and rebuking the he enemy has helped a lot. I am still a wretched sinner, just trying to keep my focus on God.

I was very angry after my boys died, that was the main focus of the therapy, and dealing with seeing what no parent should ever see. It helped getting my anger down from a rage to a simmer. The biggest help was a dream I had, I never remember dreams, I remembered this one in vivid detail though. I was standing on a sidewalk in a residential neighborhood, across the street was a park, a huge park like Yosemite. I could see a lot of people playing and laughing far away in the park. I knew my boys were there. I was calling them, I could not cross the street, in my dream I knew that was heaven and I could not cross the street. My boys did not respond to me so I yelled louder to get their attention. Still no response. I started to get mad and was really yelling at them. So I’ll no response and I started yelling really pissed off, someone walked up beside me, I saw them out of the corner of my eye, I turned to them, I knew in my dream that this was Jesus. I started yelling at him too, in a rage, he never rebuked me, he just looked at me and gave me a hug. I felt all my rage melt away and stopped yelling. The next morning I woke up and my anger was gone, I am still ticked off a bit but the rage is gone.

i hope you get good results from your ur therapist. I will pray for you to find peace.

[Fleet 1]

Prayers bro.

[Whydachargers?]

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with trauma. I've been lucky in that the ones close to me haven't gone through anything too bad. My 19 year old daughter is on "the spectrum" however. There are many struggles that she goes through each day... I wouldn't call it trauma, however. She has trouble making "life-long" friends... and is lonely when a "friend" lets her down or decides to distance themselves. It breaks my heart... because I think she is wonderful, thoughtful, creative (all the things I look for in a friend). I am sure she will find her way... but it's stressful watching her go through this.

Anyways, I think using a therapist is a great idea. A professional to help guide you through what you are going through is a smart idea. Good luck on your journey... and keep us posted on your journey/recovery.

That's powerful! I would elaborate but I know you already know how difficult it can be for your daughter at her age. I know that pain very well. Yep The fact you care makes a BIG difference for her.