OT: Roo's Miracle...A TPB's Community Thread Of Unity and Support

[jamrock]

Hang in there CanadianBoltFan! We are pulling for you and hoping for the best possible results and more life!

[FoutsFan]

Well, my bye week is just about over and I am set to return with Omarion this weekend. One more surgery tomorrow but I will be good for Sunday.

I wasn't sure at first if I should post and share my experience in Roo's special thread but I am really glad I did. This is a special community full of great people. Before I return here with a single football post I must come here first and express my heartfelt gratitude to all of you. Thank you all so much for your thoughts, wishes, prayers. It really does mean something. I have had some pretty heavy surgeries in the past but this has been my first experience with cancer, and as some of you know, it is a bit of a different animal, with not only a physical component but a mental strain too. Words of kindness and encouragement really do help and lift the soul.

I would like to recognize and thank each of you individually for your well wishes. If by chance I have missed anyone I apologize in advance, my visual capability is compromised at the moment.

Jamrock... WU...., FoutsFan...BoltJolt....WhydaCharger...Craig440...F LEET....Bolt4Knob....DMac...Ghost...Nutty...Velo.. ..thanks guys 🙏

Utah Bolt my Melonoma brother....you are so right. I got lucky because I had a hemorage in my left eye, totally unrelated to Melanoma but it made me get my eyes checked. The scans showed a suspicious eye freckle which turned out to be melanoma. I was lucky it was caught early and I have been under the watch of western Canada's best Ocular Onologist for the past year. My October scan said it was time for treatment. If not caught in time the Melanoma would have left my eye, got in my blood and straight to my liver...needless to say no more Charger games.

Its been a hard week no doubt, pretty nasty stuff. If you know how irritating it can be to have something in your eye, well than multiply that by a bunch of times to have your eye cut into so the surgeon can sew a gold plaque of live radiation beads onto my eye ball for a week. I will be relieved to have it surgically removed tomorrow. It will still be sore and tender for a bit i am sure as it heals and there will still be some radiation left in my eye DNA doing its thing. One thing I have learned is that my vision loss will be a lot more gradual than I thought, it will happen over the next 4-6 weeks...so at least i will have some time to adjust to my new situation. I also learned that they dont get all of the tumor, about 40% is left but it will be considered "inactive". I will still have to see the Ocular Oncologist every 3 months for the foreseeable future. Those of you who have had Cancer know the drill.

Anyways, I just wanted to update but most of all voice my appreciation for this community. Really looking forward to talking some ball again and watching the stretch run unfold. Hopefully the Chargers made some repairs on their bye too 😊

With gratitude, CBF

Praying for you and everyone one else on this board daily. Seriously I do pray for all daily. This is an amazing community here, love my bolt family! God bless you and yours.

[wu-dai clan]

CanadianBoltFan

Welcome back !!

[Bolt4Knob]

Well, my bye week is just about over and I am set to return with Omarion this weekend. One more surgery tomorrow but I will be good for Sunday.

I wasn't sure at first if I should post and share my experience in Roo's special thread but I am really glad I did. This is a special community full of great people. Before I return here with a single football post I must come here first and express my heartfelt gratitude to all of you. Thank you all so much for your thoughts, wishes, prayers. It really does mean something. I have had some pretty heavy surgeries in the past but this has been my first experience with cancer, and as some of you know, it is a bit of a different animal, with not only a physical component but a mental strain too. Words of kindness and encouragement really do help and lift the soul.

I would like to recognize and thank each of you individually for your well wishes. If by chance I have missed anyone I apologize in advance, my visual capability is compromised at the moment.

Jamrock... WU...., FoutsFan...BoltJolt....WhydaCharger...Craig440...F LEET....Bolt4Knob....DMac...Ghost...Nutty...Velo.. ..thanks guys 🙏

Utah Bolt my Melonoma brother....you are so right. I got lucky because I had a hemorage in my left eye, totally unrelated to Melanoma but it made me get my eyes checked. The scans showed a suspicious eye freckle which turned out to be melanoma. I was lucky it was caught early and I have been under the watch of western Canada's best Ocular Onologist for the past year. My October scan said it was time for treatment. If not caught in time the Melanoma would have left my eye, got in my blood and straight to my liver...needless to say no more Charger games.

Its been a hard week no doubt, pretty nasty stuff. If you know how irritating it can be to have something in your eye, well than multiply that by a bunch of times to have your eye cut into so the surgeon can sew a gold plaque of live radiation beads onto my eye ball for a week. I will be relieved to have it surgically removed tomorrow. It will still be sore and tender for a bit i am sure as it heals and there will still be some radiation left in my eye DNA doing its thing. One thing I have learned is that my vision loss will be a lot more gradual than I thought, it will happen over the next 4-6 weeks...so at least i will have some time to adjust to my new situation. I also learned that they dont get all of the tumor, about 40% is left but it will be considered "inactive". I will still have to see the Ocular Oncologist every 3 months for the foreseeable future. Those of you who have had Cancer know the drill.

Anyways, I just wanted to update but most of all voice my appreciation for this community. Really looking forward to talking some ball again and watching the stretch run unfold. Hopefully the Chargers made some repairs on their bye too 😊

With gratitude, CBF

CBF - thank you for the update and continued good healing. That sounds more than irritating what you are going through but glad that the next surgery is happening and you can move on to the next phase of treatment and recovery!

[CanadianBoltFan]

Well, my bye week is just about over and I am set to return with Omarion this weekend. One more surgery tomorrow but I will be good for Sunday.

I wasn't sure at first if I should post and share my experience in Roo's special thread but I am really glad I did. This is a special community full of great people. Before I return here with a single football post I must come here first and express my heartfelt gratitude to all of you. Thank you all so much for your thoughts, wishes, prayers. It really does mean something. I have had some pretty heavy surgeries in the past but this has been my first experience with cancer, and as some of you know, it is a bit of a different animal, with not only a physical component but a mental strain too. Words of kindness and encouragement really do help and lift the soul.

I would like to recognize and thank each of you individually for your well wishes. If by chance I have missed anyone I apologize in advance, my visual capability is compromised at the moment.

Jamrock... WU...., FoutsFan...BoltJolt....WhydaCharger...Craig440...F LEET....Bolt4Knob....DMac...Ghost...Nutty...Velo.. ..thanks guys 🙏

Utah Bolt my Melonoma brother....you are so right. I got lucky because I had a hemorage in my left eye, totally unrelated to Melanoma but it made me get my eyes checked. The scans showed a suspicious eye freckle which turned out to be melanoma. I was lucky it was caught early and I have been under the watch of western Canada's best Ocular Onologist for the past year. My October scan said it was time for treatment. If not caught in time the Melanoma would have left my eye, got in my blood and straight to my liver...needless to say no more Charger games.

Its been a hard week no doubt, pretty nasty stuff. If you know how irritating it can be to have something in your eye, well than multiply that by a bunch of times to have your eye cut into so the surgeon can sew a gold plaque of live radiation beads onto my eye ball for a week. I will be relieved to have it surgically removed tomorrow. It will still be sore and tender for a bit i am sure as it heals and there will still be some radiation left in my eye DNA doing its thing. One thing I have learned is that my vision loss will be a lot more gradual than I thought, it will happen over the next 4-6 weeks...so at least i will have some time to adjust to my new situation. I also learned that they dont get all of the tumor, about 40% is left but it will be considered "inactive". I will still have to see the Ocular Oncologist every 3 months for the foreseeable future. Those of you who have had Cancer know the drill.

Anyways, I just wanted to update but most of all voice my appreciation for this community. Really looking forward to talking some ball again and watching the stretch run unfold. Hopefully the Chargers made some repairs on their bye too 😊

With gratitude, CBF

[Fleet 1]

Thanks for the Aloha guys. This is a friends family. Im just trying to gather prayers from this community. Im hurt deeply by this but its not my family. Just in case you thought it was.

That post was copied and pasted from my friend Shawna. The mother of Gianna.

Aloha

[Topcat]

Please continue to pray for Gianna and her Family. Mom is really suffering.

It is impossible to find the words to describe the pain Jeff and I feel as we enter this phase with Gianna. It is a trauma beyond the deepest darkest pain that will be with us for the rest of our lives. I cope by keeping it in a box. I underplay the severity. I lie to myself. It’s how I make it through each day. Yet we know it also flows through Eric, Troy and Alexa. The grief we watch them process is exponential pain. It was Troy’s 14th birthday last week. We celebrated by going out for dinner - which was a major outing for us. I was standing outside the car, watching Jeff help Gianna from the passenger seat of the car she used to drive, into her wheelchair. My vibrant child, the one our family has orbited around for nearly her whole life - fights still for her life as this cancer and its treatments continue to ravage her brain. I feel so much anger. I know it’s an expected part of grief but I also want to push past it and revel in the joy she has given us for 17 years. It’s so unfair. Why Gianna? We are home, on hospice care. Even though we understand logically this next phase, the emotions of it are overwhelming. Every headache, every pain, every little thing. It is a freefall of terror - absolute terror of what the future looks like for our family. The terror of this experience. I still pray for a miracle, but my ask is angry. I am on edge in every moment. I pray for peace in my heart, to find gratitude in my anger, and most importantly, strength to support my family through this horrific nightmare. Thank you for keeping Gianna in your heart - please continue to come visit - hold her hand - tell her stories - make her laugh - share memories - tell her you love her and how much she means to you. The outpouring of love in the notes to her that we’ve read from her friends has been incredible. She has touched and inspired so many with her love - stories of things I had no idea that she had done that were so kind and giving. She is so special. She is SO LOVED.

My prayers are with you, Fleet...when I go into the jail or prison, I hear some real heartbreaking stories about them and their families...and what makes it worse is they can't be with their families...even to attend a funeral, usually...one of the key things I recommend is to begin to praise God in the midst of the storm...praise Him until His peaceful presence surrounds you...sounds like the opposite of what we normally do...our normal reaction is anger and denial...my upcoming message to the prison inmates at the next chapel service will be selections from Psalm 118 to give them hope and encouragement:

"Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.

⁵ When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord; he brought me into a spacious place.⁶ The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?

¹³ I was pushed back and about to fall, but the Lord helped me.¹⁴ The Lord is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.

¹⁷ I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.

²¹ I will give you thanks, for you answered me; you have become my salvation.

²⁶ Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. From the house of the Lord we bless you.

²⁷ The Lord is God, and he has made his light shine on us.

²⁸ You are my God, and I will praise you; you are my God, and I will exalt you.

²⁹ Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever."

Lord, I pray that Fleet and his family will feel your presence in the midst of the storm. Help them not to be afraid or angry, but to feel your presence and your peace. Make your light to shine upon him and his loved ones. Help them to pray to you, to bring their burdens to You and to praise You until your powerful presence surrounds them with love and peace. Bring them hope and surround them with the peace of the Holy Spirit. We give you thanks, we praise you and exalt you. In the name of Jesus, amen.

[Boltnut]

Please continue to pray for Gianna and her Family. Mom is really suffering.

It is impossible to find the words to describe the pain Jeff and I feel as we enter this phase with Gianna. It is a trauma beyond the deepest darkest pain that will be with us for the rest of our lives. I cope by keeping it in a box. I underplay the severity. I lie to myself. It’s how I make it through each day. Yet we know it also flows through Eric, Troy and Alexa. The grief we watch them process is exponential pain. It was Troy’s 14th birthday last week. We celebrated by going out for dinner - which was a major outing for us. I was standing outside the car, watching Jeff help Gianna from the passenger seat of the car she used to drive, into her wheelchair. My vibrant child, the one our family has orbited around for nearly her whole life - fights still for her life as this cancer and its treatments continue to ravage her brain. I feel so much anger. I know it’s an expected part of grief but I also want to push past it and revel in the joy she has given us for 17 years. It’s so unfair. Why Gianna? We are home, on hospice care. Even though we understand logically this next phase, the emotions of it are overwhelming. Every headache, every pain, every little thing. It is a freefall of terror - absolute terror of what the future looks like for our family. The terror of this experience. I still pray for a miracle, but my ask is angry. I am on edge in every moment. I pray for peace in my heart, to find gratitude in my anger, and most importantly, strength to support my family through this horrific nightmare. Thank you for keeping Gianna in your heart - please continue to come visit - hold her hand - tell her stories - make her laugh - share memories - tell her you love her and how much she means to you. The outpouring of love in the notes to her that we’ve read from her friends has been incredible. She has touched and inspired so many with her love - stories of things I had no idea that she had done that were so kind and giving. She is so special. She is SO LOVED.

I can't imagine the pain of losing my girl(s). It's really cool of you to be there for Gianna and her family. Sometimes, it really is the only thing to do. Having been sick before... it means a lot to be surrounded by people that love you.

[Ghost of Quacksaw]

Please continue to pray for Gianna and her Family. Mom is really suffering.

It is impossible to find the words to describe the pain Jeff and I feel as we enter this phase with Gianna. It is a trauma beyond the deepest darkest pain that will be with us for the rest of our lives. I cope by keeping it in a box. I underplay the severity. I lie to myself. It’s how I make it through each day. Yet we know it also flows through Eric, Troy and Alexa. The grief we watch them process is exponential pain. It was Troy’s 14th birthday last week. We celebrated by going out for dinner - which was a major outing for us. I was standing outside the car, watching Jeff help Gianna from the passenger seat of the car she used to drive, into her wheelchair. My vibrant child, the one our family has orbited around for nearly her whole life - fights still for her life as this cancer and its treatments continue to ravage her brain. I feel so much anger. I know it’s an expected part of grief but I also want to push past it and revel in the joy she has given us for 17 years. It’s so unfair. Why Gianna? We are home, on hospice care. Even though we understand logically this next phase, the emotions of it are overwhelming. Every headache, every pain, every little thing. It is a freefall of terror - absolute terror of what the future looks like for our family. The terror of this experience. I still pray for a miracle, but my ask is angry. I am on edge in every moment. I pray for peace in my heart, to find gratitude in my anger, and most importantly, strength to support my family through this horrific nightmare. Thank you for keeping Gianna in your heart - please continue to come visit - hold her hand - tell her stories - make her laugh - share memories - tell her you love her and how much she means to you. The outpouring of love in the notes to her that we’ve read from her friends has been incredible. She has touched and inspired so many with her love - stories of things I had no idea that she had done that were so kind and giving. She is so special. She is SO LOVED.

Holding this up to the Creator. May you and your family be comforted.

[FoutsFan]

Please continue to pray for Gianna and her Family. Mom is really suffering.

It is impossible to find the words to describe the pain Jeff and I feel as we enter this phase with Gianna. It is a trauma beyond the deepest darkest pain that will be with us for the rest of our lives. I cope by keeping it in a box. I underplay the severity. I lie to myself. It’s how I make it through each day. Yet we know it also flows through Eric, Troy and Alexa. The grief we watch them process is exponential pain. It was Troy’s 14th birthday last week. We celebrated by going out for dinner - which was a major outing for us. I was standing outside the car, watching Jeff help Gianna from the passenger seat of the car she used to drive, into her wheelchair. My vibrant child, the one our family has orbited around for nearly her whole life - fights still for her life as this cancer and its treatments continue to ravage her brain. I feel so much anger. I know it’s an expected part of grief but I also want to push past it and revel in the joy she has given us for 17 years. It’s so unfair. Why Gianna? We are home, on hospice care. Even though we understand logically this next phase, the emotions of it are overwhelming. Every headache, every pain, every little thing. It is a freefall of terror - absolute terror of what the future looks like for our family. The terror of this experience. I still pray for a miracle, but my ask is angry. I am on edge in every moment. I pray for peace in my heart, to find gratitude in my anger, and most importantly, strength to support my family through this horrific nightmare. Thank you for keeping Gianna in your heart - please continue to come visit - hold her hand - tell her stories - make her laugh - share memories - tell her you love her and how much she means to you. The outpouring of love in the notes to her that we’ve read from her friends has been incredible. She has touched and inspired so many with her love - stories of things I had no idea that she had done that were so kind and giving. She is so special. She is SO LOVED.

Praying for you and yours everyday. As well as all others here. Keep the faith God is with you no matter what this life brings.

[Whydachargers?]

Same here. Stool softeners help if you need the pain meds.

Magnesium supplements are great stool softeners. I take Magnesium L-Threonate. Has other benefits.

[Fleet 1]

Please continue to pray for Gianna and her Family. Mom is really suffering.

It is impossible to find the words to describe the pain Jeff and I feel as we enter this phase with Gianna. It is a trauma beyond the deepest darkest pain that will be with us for the rest of our lives. I cope by keeping it in a box. I underplay the severity. I lie to myself. It’s how I make it through each day. Yet we know it also flows through Eric, Troy and Alexa. The grief we watch them process is exponential pain. It was Troy’s 14th birthday last week. We celebrated by going out for dinner - which was a major outing for us. I was standing outside the car, watching Jeff help Gianna from the passenger seat of the car she used to drive, into her wheelchair. My vibrant child, the one our family has orbited around for nearly her whole life - fights still for her life as this cancer and its treatments continue to ravage her brain. I feel so much anger. I know it’s an expected part of grief but I also want to push past it and revel in the joy she has given us for 17 years. It’s so unfair. Why Gianna? We are home, on hospice care. Even though we understand logically this next phase, the emotions of it are overwhelming. Every headache, every pain, every little thing. It is a freefall of terror - absolute terror of what the future looks like for our family. The terror of this experience. I still pray for a miracle, but my ask is angry. I am on edge in every moment. I pray for peace in my heart, to find gratitude in my anger, and most importantly, strength to support my family through this horrific nightmare. Thank you for keeping Gianna in your heart - please continue to come visit - hold her hand - tell her stories - make her laugh - share memories - tell her you love her and how much she means to you. The outpouring of love in the notes to her that we’ve read from her friends has been incredible. She has touched and inspired so many with her love - stories of things I had no idea that she had done that were so kind and giving. She is so special. She is SO LOVED.